Unfaithful

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it
keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is
more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are
rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I
don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't
wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he
reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just
hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that
he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy
with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this
anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the
door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it
to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be
the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little
more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away
his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

Don't jump into conclusions but i really don't know if this is gonna work out for us .
I want everything t work out but maybe we're just living a fairytale.
I hope nothing goes wrong because I love you .

Sad .

I am super sad , furious , angry , dissapointed , (negative emotions) !
I want t die.

RIP.

Hidayah , RIP. :(

Maybe i don't know you that well but , please , RIP . :(
I'm so sorry.

sad yet so happy.

HI ! second blog is dying .
nth's happening . nth much at least .

Shahizam ,
I am really sorry tht I am feeling this way . I'm the one who actually asked you to "accept" that girl and just be someone for her but now i'm really sucking my own head up.
I am sorry to be like this . I dunwan cry , I dunwan to fall . I don't want t get jealous and let go of you. I still love you . :(

confused.

god , is 11.21 pm and my mum isn't in singapore.
i feel so useless today , did nothing useful and just wasted 24 hours of my life. feeling so down now . just waiting for boyf to cheer me up and entertain me . i feel like crying now , without any aim in life . feel so sick , whats with me . im gonna continue this shit till my boyfriend goes online . i feel that i'm wasting teenage life time with someone i love but thats what i feel now . it's late and i can be outta my mind when i'm tired. i am so desperate for 'it' now . i want him by my side now. now :( now. where is he ?! AHHH. this post is so wordy and nonsensical . fuck where is he ? okay , damn it i love him so much. [random much ?] EHY SERIOUSLY WHERE THE FUCK IS HE ?! Paris hilton's new bff very drama . ehy and where is he ?! -_- ahh , cant wait to end this shit . bye .

Im super sad D:

Omg , people i am super sad . That (T) is falling in love and he said to me before tht he wont be like this till he's like 17 . I'm now like WTF and jealous. Grr , i am an idiot , why must i be jealous now when nothing's gonna change . I have my guy and his a perfectionist . why am i still thinking of him ? I am an idiot. an idiot i tell you !

Just plain bored.

HIIII ! :D
I'm just totally bored so I chose to upload some pictures . Veh pretty right ? say yes ! (nahh , just kidding .)

I'm having the biggest and scariest nerves in myself now . Competitions for track will be up next two weeks and i barely train . I hope sth happens to my 200m and have a miracle . I wanna get a 30 s flat ! D: Jiayou Sintia ! I know you can do it . Strain as much as possible now , happy next time .

Relay Relay Relay ! I am sorry team for slowing down the whole team but being the 1st runner can be stressful , i want felicia to start the race ! I am very sorry . I want to get 15 sec for my run and u ppl should too . Anw , our relay would be on th 8 lane . I think . So jiayou Deyi ! Ily .

I feel so fucked up now coz my ribcage to my hip is so bloody pain , is like it stretches even though i'm sitting down . zzz , hope it doesn't give running a problem . shitheads , bye .